My life is messy. Life is painful. It takes so much energy to do daily. Energy I don’t seem to have. I feel alone and unsure of my future. It seems all dreams are crushed. That I have nothing, can be and do nothing. I know I cannot stay in this mind set, yes I must acknowledge my pain, the hurt. Process it through the lens of Jesus Christ. The word says to count it all joy. Can I just say I need help with that. Can I honestly admit that life seems way too much for me.