I have been visiting a church in my neighborhood for the past few months. It seems to be a healthy church. Which is what I need. It is hard starting over. The church is rather large in number so getting to know people is a little more difficult. The struggle is real. The struggle to connect, to be real. To be authentic. Yet, a part of me wants to slip in that back row to slip out easily. Wanting no connection. The truth is preached. And that makes me hungry for more. I would like a group bible study that included the history in the lesson. But I have not found such a group so far. Most of the groups are social in nature. I am committed to giving this a try. I realize being in a church body is good yet finding a place to belong is hard. The lord will lead me to where I need to be.